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Tue, 01 Apr 2008 03:36:25 GMT

have you ever had a bonsai tree? they are amazing to have because they reflect our lives so well. you have a tree that can be shaped into many forms all in how you trim it. prune here prune there and then your tree grows to look this way or that. though sometimes the tree needs to be stripped and you must start over.

thats basically what im doing in a nutshell. ill blog more when i is less sleepyfied.

i just love how...

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 10:09:33 GMT

you try to say something, be it an apology or a hey get off my back, and because of this society we live in, its a continual state of "hahahaha look at this guy. i shall mock him for this stuff." people really need to grow up. it sucks pretty hardcore. i think i am losing faith in humanity. i really should be asleep...

darn....

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 23:46:05 GMT

we lost our soccer game. by alot. i did score half our goals though. we are now out of the tournament. hannah comes home today. she is suppose to call me tonight. i have talked ryan and ashleigh into at least giving her a chance. she needs one. all we can do now is pray and have faith in mankind again.

what i am currently going through...

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 01:47:21 GMT

her name is hannah. oh em gee is she awesome. we met and started talking and hanging out alot, but the problem is she wears a mask. not around me, i know the real her. its around all her friends. you know when you talk to someone who is a faker, a tourist, a whatever you want to call it, you can tell when they are forcing the lie. well i can always tell. its when she tries to be plastic. she dresses all preppy look at me look at me, but reads chuck palanuik and listens to reel big fish. its pretty obvious to me what she is really like. those are shallow things i know, but just an example, the depth of our conversations cannot be summed up so easily. not only that, but she is hanging out with her ex ALOT. normally i wouldn't mind, but its all VERY shady. so i am torn because i flipped out about it and told her how i felt about everything she is doing when i'm not around, so she gets on her dads plan and flies to the beach to think (which is weird, i never get to fly to the beach to think)but she was shook the the core by my words. to sum it up, i told her, as christians, live the life or change your name. now she is trying so hard to be the G-dly woman she was made to be, but no one trusts her. but how many times have i broken trust before becoming the man i am now? she is not the woman she will be yet, so can i hold mistakes against her? asking the cliche "what would Y-shua do?" doesn't help, because he would forgive her and give her a second chance. so maybe it does make it simple...

the long awaited return of meh.

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 06:12:43 GMT

so i have wanted to do this for a while, i just haven't. apathy is a stupid face. or maybe lathargy, or how ever you spell that. regardless, i am back to lj. so updates required maybe? for the vast majority of you, you need to be introduced, so that is what this will be.

so i am brandon EXPLOSION. i have bounced from like twenty different musical projects, which sucks, i want stability. and ladywise, wow. fall for girl, girl thinks im the shiz, girl leaves me for other guy who treats her like CRAP. so next time, i will just not fall for her. lol. easier said than done.

currently i am living in an apartment with a girl i go to church with. she is pretty cool but so not my type. i am doing construction work and it sucks. i sand drywall. woo hoo. thats only temporary though, i am applying for hyundai. i am super confident ill get the job, because im typing my resume in korean. bet. but yeah, that will help out SO FREAKIN MUCH. my car, a 95 eclipse, and no its non turbo, i got that 420a piece of trash in it, is leaking gas and needs new brake pads. i might buy a new car from my home boy brydan. depends on if davey wants the dsm. he is in love with it. if i get the job i'll buy tifa, this red rx7 fd that screams my name late at night. its pretty skankin... f.y.i. me and ashleigh disaster have decided to replace ballin with skankin and rep the ska scene... back to it... i am finding out who true blue friends are and Jah is working alot in my life. its pretty cool. i started climbing more, and i'm about to get a gym membership so i can lift for climbing. i think i am gonna start skating again? maybe. i miss it alot at times. i have grown up alot in the past week. i actually look 21 for once. and i am showing it with my decisions and actions. good thing? sure why not. but yeah, i am comfortable with life, but i am still moving forward. i can't wait anymore for things to happen, i gotta do them. i am learning to say no to people, which is HUGE for me. i usually just say yes to anything that people need of me and get walked all over, but i am definately growing. i like it. life is rocking something hardcore right now. monday i have an audition for a band. its pretty cool. i have pretty much got it, its a formality.

i think this is going to be where i call the ball on the blog. i am gonna work on layout maybe? i think ill end with a catch phrase like i use to...

i have to move on. i can't keep waiting for a phone that will never ring.

nah, need a better one.

see you next time, space cowboy...

oh yeah, classic.